Is it just me, or does everyone else hear that loud
screaming?!! Repetition is an excellent teacher. I live by it as a person and as a teacher. I have a repetitive habit
pattern in the morning. I tend to
park in the same area at the same places. I go over and over (repetition) the plan of whatever I do. I even believe when the same subject
keeps bumping in to me, there is a nugget of value to be grasped! Thus, the loud screaming Voice in my
heart this weekend!!!
I have intentionally lived the month of June as my “restful”
time. July is going to be a
whirlwind in my life…at least the part I know about. Only God knows the “rest
of the story.” I have said to
myself, “I want to be so prepared for whatever comes, that I ‘can laugh at the
days to come’”(the virtuous woman dreamer speaks :). But for whatever reason, Friday morning
I allowed the natural mind to begin this nudging of “whatabouts,” “how,” ”how much will it be,” “am I capable,” “are you sure this is going to
work out” questions to answer the door and invite my old running buddy, Fear,
to come in, unpack, and stay awhile. Can I say I despise this friend! She is one toxic and mean girl. I had no idea she was coming to this
heart. She came very unannounced and uninvited. Add rude to the list of who she is.
By Saturday morning, Fear and I had turned nudging into an
irritable, worried, dreading, and just down right “everybody leave me alone”
heart. Thankfully, my “Who” I know
was louder and is more trustworthy than my heart guest, Fear. God in His unfailing, everlasting,
patient, forgiving, present, and perfectly confronting heart began the work of
repetition of His truth to my heart. And yes, He had to go to the level of
screaming…I am not so good with a soft whisper, I am one of those that needs to
be taken by the shoulders and shaken while being screamed at “hush up”! I can be quite hysterical and dramatic.
Peace, peaceful heart, rest, abide, dwell. Words of truth and comfort. God is my Shepherd. Psalm 23 is a place of rest. Saturday morning while Fear and I were
mapping out our plans, the Friend who sticks closer than a brother broke in
with “He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.” (Psalm 23). A one
sentence verse that spoke all I needed for that moment, day, and future. Sunday, the sermon was Psalm 23. The
Shepherd again spoke. This
morning, words of encouragement to concentrate on the Shepherd who is able to
care perfectly for his sheep. I DO
NOT HAVE OR KNOW ALL THE ANSWERS! I DO NOT HAVE TO BE IN A MESS BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE OR KNOW ALL THE
ANSWERS!
So yesterday, I began to pack my uninvited guest’s (Fear) bag and once again sent her packing. I was so angry with myself for letting her come and stay this
weekend. I immediately invited my
Shepherd to move in and overtake the place – the heart of this sheep. I need to rest, truly rest – lie down - and
let Him care for me…all the “whatabouts”
“what ifs” “can we
affords” “how will it come
together.” The Shepherd knows each
sheep and is trustworthy.
Father, wash this sheep in the truths of Psalm 23 and John
10. May I
follow, rest, and listen only to You, my Shepherd. Amen
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