“My God will meet your needs…” Phil.4:19
What are my needs? I recently returned from my “mission trip” to Kentucky over spring break where I stayed with a dear brother and sister in Christ who just so happen to be my son and daughter-in-law! I cleaned, taught children, cooked, played in the park, listened to hearts seeking God’s direction, worshipped with other brothers and sisters in Christ, and came away from the trip so blessed!
My trip also challenged me to pray more, to trust more, and to surrender more, but ultimately to release more. Any time I am with any of my adult children’s families, I now apply the truths I thought I always “applied” when they were growing up, like
~God gives them what and who they need for tomorrow
~God has a plan and is preparing them for the future
~Let’s pray for this circumstance that seems so unfair and ask God what He wants US to learn and to be changed in OUR hearts
Any of these quotes sound familiar? While raising my children, I tried very hard not to intervene in unfair, wrongs, and even in hurtful times. I would listen and watch as the circumstance/relationship unfolded, knowing if something went what I considered too far, I could step in and change, influence, rescue, and remove it. Basically, I would be the safety net for God. Wow, I didn’t realize I just thought of myself as “Plan B” for my children when “Plan A-God” wasn’t quite good, safe, or kind enough!
Fast forward to adult children. Finances, jobs, raising children, communication issues (mostly mine - not theirs). No longer can I use all my gifts and talents, words, or presence to change or even convince their circumstances/relationships to change. This is the season where “Plan A - God” is their (and my) only infallible way. By the way, “Plan A - God” was always the only reliable and good plan. I was just a good self-deceiver when I thought of myself as a solid foundational plan. You see, I get caught up in thinking THEY have such big needs and at THE SAME TIME I am fretting, trying to figure something out for them, actively trying to fix the whatever, even being angry or frustrated that the situation is in their life. Then when I calm my heart down enough to take a breath, the Holy Spirit kindly speaks truth to me: “Yes, your adult children do have needs. Yes, you must encourage them, pray for them, but their (your) greatest need is to trust Me, believe Me, hide My word in their (your) heart, live by faith, have a heart that is attentive and obedient to Me.” Full circle – the very truths God taught me as a mother in the midst of raising children are the very truths He reminds me of today with adult children!
So, what are my needs? Today, as I write, I believe my greatest need is to live truth. James (yes, I got him in here!) says “LIVE IT” - the truth of God. Speaking truth can be so easy to roll off the tongue that living it and trusting God to do for my children, health, finances, relationships, work, and ministry is difficult at times…especially when I can’t do good or even see evidence of good or change. This is where the rubber meets the road.
“Do not merely listen to the word …Do what it says.” This is my greatest need.